FML now, It'll get better later

i promise.



so, i went through a mini breakdown, i suppose if you could call it that. im sorry for all you witness. i need to catch up on some blogs and such, i have been reading, just not commenting. i just feel like life has been real tough lately. i feel as though it may get better real soon though.

today i had half a cup of tomatoe puree mixed together with water. also, a sandwich, crackers, and ramen. but everything but the tomatoe, i purged. so does it count?

ive dropped two lbs supposedly, but idk my body has been acting weird. it seems i lose two lbs a day and gain it back the next. a non-stop cycle just to fuck with my head..

tomorrow im supposed to 'have' lunch with my long lost forgotten father.. we'll see how that goes. ima try my hardest to not eat. i think he's catching on tho.

around 7pm i have a bday party im supposed to partake in, 1950's based, but the sad part is there were no fat mexicans in the 1950's it seems like. i cant make any costume look half way decent with my current weight.

god i needa drop this burden. sorry again for this rant of rediculous poor me mumbo jumbo. trust me, nobody dislikes an attention whore more than i. so to make up for it, i thought id post some thinspo. to get my head outta the poor me thing, and back in the game.










this last one is my personal fave, and will be my phones walpaper after tomorrow. god i would kill for his body

think thin kids. i hope your not as down in the dumps as i, and if so, remember: we can get there eventually, we cannot give up because this is a life style and if we do not commit, we will never reach our goal. we have the power to do it. believe in yourselves, i believe in all of you.
mad zaq