I had promised myself to diet for twenty-one days. Fail. Merely the second day into my diet and i give into temptation. i mask it with an excuse of "oh, since he is spending the night, i may eat this one day". fuck that! I am so fucking tired of lying to myself. so here, once again, as punishment i declare twenty-two days of fasting. no exceptions. food is for the weak. and weak i am not. now lets see if i fucking stick to it this time. please give me encouragement! i need it ever so badly. :( Sadly, the longest period of time i went without food is a week. i dropped twenty-to-thirty lbs. i like to count my personal weight in stone though. it appears less that way ;) lets see if i make my goal. root for me. No more self indulgences please. the ultimate satisfaction is weight-loss. no more living for the moment, i've done way too much of that. anybody have tips for a noob like myself? feel free to comment, i'd really appreciate anything. :) until i start to feel like giving in, and bitch about that in a post, see ya later
MAD ZAQ
♥Food Is Filthy♥
2 comments:
Hey! Don't be too hard on yourself, it really is tough when friends and people expect you to eat, or buy you food, and make you feel guilty. I give you serious props for having lasted a week fasting, I don't have that kind of control! Yet, anyways...
Good luck on the fast,
jaysie
I'm always making excuses and lying to myself just to eat something too... It's crazy how it works that way, and then once we've eaten we hate ourselves for it, isn't it?
As far as tips go, i'd say just explore a lot of different pro-ana sites, find some thinspiration pictures, and think of some way to reward yourself that you will only do if you accomplish this goal. Best of wishes.
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